Tuesday, December 30, 2008

冬の旅人

One of my all time favorite, by 久石 譲:

逢いたくて逢いたくて
人は悲しみを逃れられないのか
見つめあう優しさが
夢と思うほど二人は離れすぎた
たった一度の生命をもやし
星座になって消えてゆく
次の時代は必ず
同じ空を見上げ逢いたい

冬の旅人たち
想い出を抱きしめ
そして目覚めたとき
二人のために新しい季節は輝く
華の旅は遙か

振り向いて振り向いて
風に消えてゆく貴女をさがしてる
さよならの哀しみを
思い出すたびにWine-Glass 重ねる
情熱の炎(ひ)をコートに包み
夜と夜明けを繰り返す
綺麗なだけの夢でも
過ぎた時間(とき)の中に追い掛け

冬の旅人たち
永遠を信じて
そして目覚めたとき
二人のために新しい季節は輝く
愛の旅は遙か

冬の旅人たち
想い出を抱きしめ
そして目覚めたとき
二人のために新しい季節は輝く
華の旅は遙か

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Ironic / Ridiculous

Today I just noticed how ridiculous the PG notice is. It says the program may contain contents of inappropriate and / or adult nature. If the producer really thinks it's "inappropriate", why they still have to produce contents of that kind?

Saturday, December 27, 2008

This must be a CURSE

Here it comes again. Stomachache, diarrhoea, dizzy ... all flu symptoms come together to celebrate Christmas with me. If my "normal practice" of feeling ill during holidays is not a curse, I cannot explain why.

Poor me ...

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Silent night

The night is silent, so it's a Silent Night.

No celebration, no church going. Stay home, watch TV then doing nothing else.

I better get sleeping earlier.

Wish everybody a very happy Christmas, and good night.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

That's what friends are for ... huh!

I'm always a very straight forward person so I don't like any twist & turn sayings.

Yesterday I asked "Mary" if she has the video of "Doraemon". Guessed what is the answer? "How would I know?" "Ann" was curious and asked, "It's your collection how come you don't know?" "Mary" answered, "I have bought a lot of DVD so how can I remember what video I have?" OK. I can still afford a DVD that I can skip a lunch or two for it. But I wonder: why can't she simply say "I don't have it" or "No, I'm not lending it to you."

Thanks for teaching me the lesson again. I'm not that dump so I surely understand the meaning at the back. How dump am I to keep thinking "Mary" would be a friend to financially poor Michelle? Dump girl ...

Merry Christmas richie rich "Mary" ...

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Love Actually

This is one of my favorite movies, particularly for Christmas. "Love is all around" is the tagline of the movie but where's mine???

Anyways, it's a movie about love. Love doesn't concern about status, job, country of origin; Love is endurance and understaning, and what else? These are all I can get from "listening" to the movie and writing / typing my first movie review at the same time.

4 more days to Christmas and I should definitely watch this movie again during my Christmas Holiday.

Forever Enthralled

This is the first time in my life attending a movie pre-view - a real pre-view that the movie will only be shown starting Jan 1, 09.

This is a good movie I have to say, so artistic and so real but I think it's not fair to compare it with "Farewell My Concubine" as one is a biography and the other is a fiction (correct me if I'm wrong). But on the other hand, the performance of Leslie Cheung is much much better than Leon Lai.

I think I have to review "Farewell My Concubine" when the memory about "Forever Enthralled" is still fresh ...





Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Christmas Gift Exchange

We just had our office gift exchange for Christmas:

  • Every staff had to bring a present of HK$100 or below;
  • The staff had to explain why s/he chose that particular present;
  • The receiver had to express how s/he feel about the present.
The atmosphere was surprisingly warm and happy. With limited budget, everybody has put in their mind in choosing a meaningful present. I don't know how the others felt, but I was very happy about this. I hope everybody understand the value of the present does not matter but the meaning behind the present - it shows our appreciation and gratitude that we have received over the year.

Christmas is a not an excuse to hang out for fun. Please show your gratitude to the people around you in this joyful season.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Goolie is good enough

What have I done over the weekend? "Goolie". I didn't even believe that I personally have been to the HK Brands & Products Expo and shopped like a "SeeLai". I always laughed at people who went for a bit of promotion and stock up food at home - see, "I have today too" ("I deserve that" - 我都有今日喇~!)

See what I've bought - noodles, ready to cook soup packs, eggs rolls, chili sauce ... those are all I won't consume everyday but now, I have a lot at home. What for? I don't know. All I know I'm a good goolie and I listen to my master - my "old bean" ("老豆" - father)... He is the one who ordered me to go there ...

Goolie is good enough ...

Friday, December 12, 2008

盼望的緣份

若說愛永遠像枷鎖 願意套上十分傻
願豁出生命 莫笑我痴情
但我永遠也是一個 日子孤單的經過
在這一生中 快樂也一個

*緣份永遠要避開我 今天我實在願講和
自己孤單 還要天天唱著情歌
寧願我去發現真錯 但也想親身經過
願豁出生命 願意擔起枷鎖

願意獻上這份真愛 任這世界罵我痴傻
願豁出生命 莫笑我痴情
若我永遠也是一個 問這一生怎麼過
是這麼孤單 快樂也一個*

重唱*

是這麼孤單 愛情避開我

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Jogging

Don't know if it would last, but I have started my evening jogging lately. Thanks Ann & Anita for their recommendation.

Actually the stadium is great - big, clean, water front location, and best of all, near to home. With the cool winter in HK, it's the best location for exercise. Although I do not run but simply jog or even walk, I feel so good.

Life is so simple you see, a good night sleep, a stable work, food that can make me feel full and some exercise that these make up my day.

平淡是福

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

What would happen if ...

The movie I saw last night showed 2 girls bravely came out for their sexual orientation. What would happen if I told my family that I were gay??? Amazing ...

泣いちゃいそうよ - ともざかりえ

This is what I really want to do ... nothing to do with the lyrics~

一緒にいるそれだけでも  しあわせだと思ってた
だけど今は もっともっとなんて  欲張りだね

いつもの道  歩きながら  曲がり角で立ち止る
急に消えた 私 探している  その顔を見たくて

泣いちゃいそうよ  私の方が  あなたのいない世界
泣いちゃいそうよ  私の方が  こんなに愛してる

どんな時も  わたしだけを  見つめていて欲しいのよ
愛はいつも  不安 隠すように  わがままになるのね

泣いちゃうなんて  私らしくない  あなたの腕のなかで
泣いちゃうなんて  私らしくない  なにかを確かめる

泣いちゃいそうよ  私の方が  あなたのいない世界
泣いちゃいそうよ  私の方が  こんなに愛してる  あなたを愛してる

HKLGFF 2008

It's over, finally. After a week's movie going, I can make a summary on the movies I've watched in the film festival, which I'm very satisfied with.

End of Love (HK) - free preview
A very disappointing movie. I understand the director has a lot of messages that he wants to share with the audiences, but just too much making the movie losing focus. Drug abuse? Family acceptance of being gay? Gay relationship? Gay prostitution? It seems everything's around the subject "gay", but the gay character is not the main point - it's about drug abuse, love relationship, prostitution, trust and understanding. GAY IS JUST NOT THE MAIN POINT IN THIS MOVIE.

Opening movie - Artemisia (Taiwan)
This is a female movie rather than a gay movie. The heroine - the mother Ai - is a very brave woman. Bringing up her 2 children all by herself, that one of them is gay (which is nothing wrong) and the other has an unmarried child (and it's nothing wrong too). The movie illustrates this brave woman faces the traditional Chinese society with two "not that ordinary" children and one innocent grand children with love.

Me ... Myself (Thailand)
I don't think the movie relates to gay or transvesites but so happened Tan is dumped by his lover who happens to be a married man, and he dances in a night club run by transvesites or transsexual people. His love with Oom is so ordinary and the movie is of main stream. I like it very much. BTW, "Tan" is quite a handsome Thai boy =)

Football Undercover (Germany)
It reveals the secret face of Iran's woman life. part of. You can never imagine they simply have no human rights there - they have to wear a hair scarf everywhere they go. I think the most ridiculous thing is football players have to wear long sleeves T-shirts and trousers (not pants) to play the game, even when there is no male in the stadium, not to mention all the political tricks people have played to stop this international friendship game. Girls, treasure your gift of having your say in the society - this is not a must, and at lease women would not supress women here. Thanks God~

Were The World Mine (USA)
What a musical~! I would not comment on the faces of the boys as they really are not my type (regardless they are gay or not), but Timothy (Tanner Cohen) really has a good voice. They portrait "A Mid-Summer Night's Dream" gayly and the result is very good.

Candy Rain (Taiwan)
This is an interesting movie. "One apartment, Four female couples, Eleven girls entangled" - this is the slogan of the movie. Indeed, the world of female love is always so tender while fightings would come in any form - runaway, "cold war", fist fighting ... and the injury it creates is something you cannot imagine. The casting of the movie is very good, especially the innocent U (who looks like Gigi Leung) who portraits a shy tomboy. But the part by Karena Lam is just so-so that I'm a bit disappointed.

Otto; or, Up with Dead People (Germany)
Don't know how to descrive this movie. Cult? Political? Whatever. Through the zombie Otto, I think director Bruce LaBruce wants to strive for ordinary rights for gay people, does he? This is a hilarious movie, a lot of fun scene, especially in one scene, a zomie tears off the body of a man and then that man becomes another zombie and there is a hole in his torn body, and ... that zombie fucked him in the hole of the body ... I couldn'd stop laughly ... loudly.

Closing Movie - I can't think straight (UK)
I rushed to the movie after class, and I was rewarded. Although the movie is kind of a "fairy tale" that the families and people around the 2 gorgeous girls can easily accept their sexual orientation, but the 2 girls are really ... charming. Tala is a very sexy woman and I'm sure even straight woman would easily fall for her. Leyla is a very talented shy girl but she turns out to be very truthful to her love - Tala. She is so brave to come out and fight for her love. I like this movie that it gave me a warm sweet dream~

Monday, December 1, 2008

Inferiority

This is a very negative feeling - but this is how I feel in office.

What have I been doing all these years? Trying to do the best and hoping for a better position and better living for my family. Am I wrong? No matter what I've done - I'm not good enough, in any and all areas.

What is a "manager"? A people who manages EVERYTHING - a very general clerical staff. This is my interpretation. From the word, you can see this is a singular noun - no "s" that means "everything to be managed by him / her alone". This is the expectation towards a manager so if I cannot do things well in any and all areas, I'm no good. And in fact, I'm no good in this office.

I got my degree only at the age of 30 - old, and now I'm try to buying my master degree - with money, I know nothing about my work - what is HR & Admin, I don't know. Of what use I'm to this company? I cannot even fight for my own work - nobody will listen to you in the hell HQ. So of what use I am? I no longer know in which area I'm good at ...

Irritating

Life in office is getting more and more irritating. Why my "good intention" is misunderstood and distorted? Why people becomes more and more unreasonably demanding? I started to doubt about myself ... after all, me - myself, maybe the source of all problems.

Irritation, frustration, overwhelming ... please feel free to put any adjective that can describe your emotion negatively on me - you MUST get me right ...

Mixed feeling

Browsed the updates of friends on Facebook and found their photos. The feeling was ... complicated.

Happy to see my friends had a great day, smile brightly in front of the camera. And ... jealous to see they were happy, smiling brightly in front of the camera.

Why? This is the question I always ask myself lately. When everybody's enjoyinig themselves, I'm stay at home, doing ... just nothing. My "religious" friend would tell me, this is my "mission". But ... why is this "mission" assigned to me but not my brothers and sisters-in-law? Why I cannot put down everything and do something that I really want to? Why? Why? Why?

I'm so tired ... so tired ...

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Give me a BREAK

I dreamt again. To Disney Resort Hotel. For a holiday.

People said dreams reflect ther reality. So I dreamt of having my holiday in Disney Resort Hotel, it reflected that I need a holiday, DESPERATELY.

GIVE ME A BREAK~!!!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

New blog vs Old blog

Don't know whether I'm lazy or I have some kind of sentiments against my old blog, I'm now using English for my new blog, i.e. here.

Deep inside, maybe I want to make a difference between the two and honestly, typing English is much faster than Chinese, especially I have to think how to write this word and how can I express this feeling in Cantonese instead of standard Chinese.

I'm lazy or other emotional factors, I don't care and I'm now here with my new blog.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Innocent girls

The other day when I had lunch with Blanche, we talk about "foul language", and last night when I chit-chat with our team sweetie, she didn't know about that either. I was SHOCKED.

To me, these kind of things are common sense to me and are of basic knowledge. Why other people don't know about that? Maybe I'm bit "無聊" to study about the shape and formation of the words, but, maybe I have thought too much, am I weird?

Anyways I don't care about how other people think about me but ... are they really that innocent, or just playing their roles of an innocent girl? I'm puzzled ...

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

A good start of the day

It's very important to me as it affects the rest of my day.

Yesterday I had quite a good start because I watched part of the Disney animation "Tinker Bell" that the characters are all very nice and sweet and cute. But today, it's totally different - I was pissed off.

My dear Indonesian maid told my sister in law about her request for extending her contract. Not discussing with me but a 3rd party. This is the first thing that pissed me. Secondly, she requested for a salary rise. So I called her up and had a conversation with her.

Under the current financial situation, there is NO WAY I would raise her salary. Instead, she can come stay with us instead of living outside. My point is if she wanna quit just because I won't raise her salary, very well, go ahead. I'll just find another one. I would not allow people blackmailing me. I'm sure that fuckinig bitch would not find another no-much-to-do domestic job.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Here I am

Guess where I am on this day? O-F-F-I-C-E~ Yes, I'm working on my office.

I think work is the only thing that can give me some peace. When I focus on my work, I can forget about everything.

So, here I am~

Friday, November 14, 2008

Group discussion

This was the first time I participated a group discussion on internet through MSN, and this was the first time a group discussion could come to a conclusion in just 30 minutes. What we need to do now is to prepare our own part and combine them into a single powerpoint for presentation, and that's it.

Finally, I could meet somebody efficient.

雜記

(1) 原來有自己嘅office係咁好 - 我可以上網睇小說冇人知、同人MSN又冇人知,最好係,我喊都冇人知。

待續...

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

The One You Love

Feeling kind of sentimental this morning, and suddenly remembered this song:

The one you love - Glenn Frey

I know you need a friend
Someone you can talk to
Who will understand what you're going through
When it comes to love
There's no easy answer
Only you can say what you're gonna do

I heard you on the phone
You took his number
Said you were alone
But you'd call him soon
Isn't he the guy, the guy who left you crying
Isn't he the one who made you blue

When you remember those nights in his arms
You know you gotta make up your mind

Are you going to stay with the one who loves you
Or are you going back to the one you love
Someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you
Someone's gonna thank the stars above

What you gonna say when he comes over
There's no easy way to see this through
All the broken dreams, all the disappointments
Oh, girl. What you gonna do

Your heart keeps saying it's just not fair
But still you gotta make up your mind

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

「愛到盡」觀後感

一部我唔知點形容嘅電影。首先,佢喺同志電影展出現,我以為佢會有關同志嘅嘢。係,主角係一個同志,但其實係講一隻同志鴨(如有冒犯之處,sorry!)嘅濫藥故事。入面穿插幾條感情線,有男男,亦有男女,但... 我get唔到條主線:到底係阿明同阿仁條感情線、定係同明暗戀阿強條線、又或係阿明同Cyrus嘅友情線、更甚係阿明同Jackie嘅出軌一夜情、阿明同佢阿媽 / 阿仁同佢阿爸嘅親情線???好亂...

睇咗幾年同志影展,參展電影入面都係靚仔靚女。呢套可能因為唔係主流電影(唔同外國有大製作同志電影),所以冇一啲平日見開嗰種靚面孔喺電影中出現,但就可能係咁,令套戲來得更真實 - 畢竟,我哋身邊嘅人又有幾個真係「靚」到好似電影明星蹋吖?

呢樣係唯一可取嘅地方。其他?我只可以用「掛羊頭賣狗肉」嚟形容呢部戲,佢利用咗同志影展呢個平台,以同志講濫藥。

Saturday, November 8, 2008

All by myself

This reminds me of Bridget Jones' Diary. Is this the HK version: Michelle's Diary???

When I was young
I never needed anyone
And making love was just for fun
Those days are gone

Living alone
I think of all the friends I've known
But when I dial the telephone
Nobody's home

All by myself
Don't wanna be, all by myself anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live, all by myself anymore

Hard to be sure
Sometimes I feel so insecure
And love so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

幽.默

睇鄒凱光個自我介紹 - 好正。

你認為「愛情」是 - 沒有工作時的玩意
你認為「工作」是 - 沒有愛情時的必需


哈哈~ 因為我乜都冇,所以只有工作。實在太妙喇~

鄒凱光,不枉我咁欣賞你~

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

生日倒數

越近生日,個人越驚。我唔係驚又老一歲,反正已經唔再後生,我真係好驚今年會冇人記得我生日。

其實講起真係好矛盾。我好驚冇人記得自己生日之餘,又唔想有人記得自己生日。試諗吓如果以幫我「慶祝」生日為名,出嚟只係各自吹水 - 多謝夾唔該,唔好預我。

所以,我今年嘅生日願望 - 地球上以後再冇人記得我生日。多謝。

P.S.原來,琴日係我「傳說中」嘅農曆生日。真係好,自己都唔記得~

一早起身望出窗外,個天一片灰茫茫。係咪意味我今日都一樣咁灰???

Monday, November 3, 2008

我嘅存在意義 & 價值

成日聽到有人喺我耳邊談及佢哋對第三者嘅appreciation,每次都令我好難受。其中一次,而且印象都幾深刻嘅一次,係聽一個我暗戀嘅男仔,談佢暗戀嘅女仔。嗰種感覺,好痛。人越大,聽到呢種說話嘅次數就越多,我嘅父母甚至從未對我做嘅一任何一件事有一聲讚許 - 你話吖,做我都真係幾悲!我不期然諗:其實,我係咪真係冇乜用?做嘅嘢,永遠都係吃力不討好,又或者其實我真係做唔好。

頭先老闆又同我講佢有幾咁appreciate隔離部門嘅努力同付出。唉~或者我真係做得唔好,又或者係唔夠好,所以冇人appreciate我所做嘅嘢。既然係咁,我係咪應該離開,俾有能之士繼續為大眾服務?

我真係好唔開心... 點解臨生日先發現原來自己冇乜存在價值?好灰...

好攰~

原來真正嘅攰係咁樣:腰酸背痛、雙腳無力、雙眼又乾又澀、頭痛、耳鳴... 等等症狀相時出現。最慘嘅仲要加上瞓.唔.著

琴日收工離開AWE,我選擇唔跟老細車出老尖。因為同佢哋一齊多一分鐘,表示我要on duty多一分鐘。我寧願自己俾錢坐機鐵轉的士返屋企,因為我...

要命唔要錢~

Saturday, November 1, 2008

The success of a couple

I was exhausted after making a HK tour with 2 foreigners - Dennis and his wife Nancy from the States. But I learned a lot from them.

1. They have been married for 27 years but still look like newly wed. When we asked for the scret of their success ...

Man: I love going home.

Yes, if there is somebody always waiting for you after your hard day's work, why not going home? It's always a shelter for you.

Wife: We are best friends.

Yes, best friends never keep secrets from one another, and they share their interest with one another.

... and these are the reasons they can keep the marriage for 27 years, and longer.

2. The purpose of touring HK was to know more about HK. Dennis said, "People up there always say nice thing, which is good, but we want to listen to the truth and what people need. And that's why I will try to talk to those who are doing the business, but not the high pin people. I hope they can help push the business a bit." This is damn right. This is the mentality that I have been looking for from the management.

3. By the way, Dennis has his own rock'n roll band in the States and I have watched their performance on YouTube. It's awesome and if you are interested, just take a look...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uesqdjw2wss

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

John Gray: 男女大不同

呢本係一本好有趣嘅書。幾年前我睇係因為我對心理學有興趣,但今日,我終於相信佢係applicable。

以前我睇呢本書嘅時候,focus只擺係自己身上:點解我無咁嘅reaction嘅呢?點解佢嘅reaction又唔同本書嘅?但今日,我從我親愛嘅老闆身上,「讀」到呢本書嘅summary。佢依家就正正將自己收埋喺山洞入面,作為佢嘅下屬或partial朋友,我可以做嘅,就只係等佢自己出關、浮上水面。

註:喺呢幾個禮拜嘅時間,我越來越覺得老闆大人將我當成朋友 - 因為佢肯嘗試將我當成佢嘅聆聽者;更甚者,我覺得佢似我個仔 - 而我呢個阿媽有「責任」嘗試為幫分憂。無論我當佢係朋友定我個仔,我會盡我嘅力令我所有嘅朋友覺得自在、適服、幸福 ...

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

我 ...

坐喺我office門外嘅小妹妹經常同佢嘅親親男友通熱線。雖然唔係好大聲,但我都仲可以完全聽到佢講乜。

小妹妹平時可以時時屎滾、日日扯火,但當同男友仔通電話時,就可以嬌聲嗲氣。有時,你都唔好話唔肉麻。

有位台灣師傅話我到今日依然孑然一身,係因為我唔識/唔肯向男性撒嬌。Come on~ 我都想有咁嘅機會,但苦無對象;而且我嘅性格唔容許我咁做 - 最起碼我過唔到自己嗰關。

不過,其實自己一個人又有乜唔妥呢?起碼到目前為止,我都仲好開心吓喎...

終於有覺好瞓

經過一個星期0000-0230,再0500至0630嘅睡眠時間,琴晚我終於可以一覺瞓天光。希望今晚可以繼續啦~

但我知凡事有代價 - 就係由琴日開始要不停返13日工,而其中兩日係苦工。不過算啦,就當係儲假等年尾放囉,唔係可以點喎...

人就係咁 - 要呃人,先要呃自己...

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

お元気ですか?マイフレンド

忽然腦海浮現一隻10幾年前嘅日本歌,歌詞都幾sweet & warm...

お元気ですか?マイフレンド by 少女隊

あなたと会えまくて、淋しいです
許してください わがままを
友達なら それでもいい
いい聞かせたの 自分に
本当はつらいけど

How are you my friend? お元気ですか
貴方の所へいつでも 飛んでいきたい
How are you my friend? お元気ですか
この次また会えたら 微笑下さい

いつものやさしい目を 思い出します
あなたの前だ私は 子供のよう
わかってるの でも時々は
一人だけで夢を見ていたいのです

* How are you my friend? お元気ですか
貴方は私の一番大切な人
How are you my friend? 幸せですか
もすこしだけ 貴方のそばにいてもいいですか

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

打劫呀~

星期日下午約4點半,我發現屋企廚房個水龍頭漏水,於是就叫阿哥馬上搵最近嘅水喉佬嚟睇。點知個死心水喉佬差不多6點先嚟,一入廚房就話我哋嗰種水喉好難整,只可以成個換。咁幾多錢呀?條「汪洋大盜」叫價8舊。8舊?打劫好過啦~ 佢仲話:「係咁嘅價錢喇,你諗吓啦」就「頭也不回」咁走咗。激得我吖...

就是我再打電話俾相熟嘅水喉佬。雖然佢話要星期一先可以整,但都好細心咁問明一切,俾一個約價我,再約好話星期一上嚟整。OK,唯有咁啦,於是我哋一家就好慳水咁過咗一晚 - 因為怕開得水喉太大而加深水喉嘅「病情」。

星期一因為要返工,就放底5舊水交底俾印印跟進。好奇怪成日一個電話都無,到放學返屋企,一看完來已經整好,而枱面仲有220個大洋剩。嘩~ 8舊同3舊嘅差別呀... 好彩冇俾個死佬整條水喉,如果唔係就真係丟5舊水落咸水海...

死佬,想打劫我?冇咁易...

Saturday, October 11, 2008

The Blower's Daughter

第一次睇「誘心人The Closer」就已經被呢隻歌吸引住,純粹因為隻melody好聽。第二以至第N次睇呢套戲,就更因為佢同劇情互上呼應,再加上Damien Rice嘅聲音,我愛上唸隻歌。

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time

And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time

And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you...

I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...

My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

Friday, October 10, 2008

今日我好寸

唔知係咪個人唔舒服,所以勁寸。

案件 1: 小朋友一號call我,話有人要我收件。唔係吖話?咁大陣丈?走出去一睇,原來係「使命必達」嘅courier。有啲火,開始寸人:「唔係嘛?courier都要我走出嚟收。平時都係你哋幫我收架啦...」「咁佢話最好你親自簽收呀嘛...」十級大火:「你冇嘢吖話?你第一日出嚟做嘢咩?佢梗係咁話啦,你又聽人講...」頭都唔回返自己office。

案件2: 話說原來件courier件係... 一條charger線俾小朋友二號。小朋友二號又play cute:「哈!原來係條差電線。」我啱啱啲火未熄,新火又起。「唔係吖話?一條電線寄UPS?妹仔大過主人婆...」小朋友二號見唔係好對路:「... 上次喺美國我借俾阿Joe(大老闆),點知佢叫呀Chad寄返過嚟... 」我又乘機「教仔」:「Send番個messge俾人聽話你收到啦... 唔好咁冇禮貌呀...」點知個死仔包又play cute:「我唔知佢e-mail...」唉~一火未熄,一火又起:「你冇嘢吖話?今日第一日返工呀?打個名去address book搵咪得囉...」點知...「我唔知佢個姓,咁點算呀?」我無言。點算?By elimination囉~ 邊個department你知喇啩?!死蠢~

有嘢留番拜山先講

呢句係口頭禪,但估唔到我去拜山真係好多嘢講。同大佬話當年、同侄仔講吓屋企嘅「歷史」、吐吓苦水... 好痛快。我幾時都話喺屋企人面我覺得最舒服 - 可以做番原本嘅我,唔駛扮強,我係屋企最細嗰個(當然唔計啲下一代啦~),可以依靠我兩個阿哥... 真係好舒服~

時間可唔可以向後退,俾我返到讀幼稚園嘅時候,我所有親人都喺身邊疼鍚我,而我又唔駛擔心任何事,包括屋企、讀書...

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Tranq

最近學會咗一個字 - Tranq,成個字係「tranquilize」,解作「鎮靜」。最近,baking成為我嘅tranquilizer鎮靜劑。每當我唔開心嘅時候,我都會開爐。過去嘅鎮靜劑之作有不計其數嘅失敗蛋糕,亦有最近嘅曲奇、腸仔飽,同今晚嘅香蕉蛋糕。

整蛋糕嗰陣我可以成個人concentrate喺整餅嘅過程,完全投入自己嘅世界:對眼只望到我想望嘅嘢、個腦就只係諗住整餅過程要留意嘅細節,對耳?可以完全休息。

今晚我由好唔開心,變成因為整出一個幾好味嘅香蕉蛋糕而好開心。今晚,我希望因為咁而有一夜好眠。

Sweet Dreams Guys~

Thursday, October 2, 2008

單身?結婚?

今日陳慧琳結婚,雖然唔關我事,但不約而同咁碰上「單身?結婚?」呢個問題。

美國老闆 - 其實年紀細過我,問我「Married? Single?」,放工上Facebook又見朋友仔喺forum上討論單身嘅問題。我好疑惑。單身又點?結咗婚又點?有乜問題呀?單身好醜、結咗婚又好威咩?

好同意有人講:依家啲人根本唔知結婚係乜嘢一回事?為結婚而隨便搵個唔啱嘅人,之後最多就離婚囉!喂~ 婚姻係一生一世嘅事嚟呀~ 而且結婚誓言話係任何情況下(包括生老病死、喜怒哀樂、富貴貧賤、榮辱與否,等等,等等...),都唔會「拋棄」另一半嘅咩?

「結、婚」,原來依家啲人真係覺得「結」完就會「分」喇...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

多產嘅假期

只係一日假期,我已經有好大嘅「個人肯定 (Self Actualization)」,因為我就單憑recipe就整咗一啲我以為好難嘅嘢。






我唔係想同人爭、證明我比其他人叻;但如果只係看圖識字嘅遊戲都玩唔嚟,我真係可以收皮等死。


唔知你知唔知其實我係一個極度自卑嘅人?!

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

心太軟朱古力蛋糕 (2 人份量)

材料 (所有材料要室溫):
朱古力 (Valrhona 55%)(切粗粒) - 60 g
冇盬牛油(切粒) - 60 g
蛋 - 1 隻
蛋黃 - 1 隻
砂糖 - 2 湯匙
盬 - 少許
麵粉(all purpose flour) - 2 湯匙

裝飾:
糖霜少許 (隨意可省)

用具:
2個蛋糕杯 (souffle dishes or custard cups)

製作過程:
1. 預熱焗爐180°C 。 在蛋糕杯內塗上牛油。 (可再灑上麵粉方便脫模)
2. 將牛油隔水煮溶,加入苦甜朱古力,待涼至暖。
3. 將蛋、蛋黃、糖及盬混合,用電動打蛋器以中速打至奶黃色。
4. 最後把朱古力糊 (2) 攪入蛋糊 (3) 中,拌勻; 篩入麵粉,再拌勻。
5. 倒入蛋糕杯中,焗8分鐘。 取出後灑上糖霜裝飾。

蜂蜜綠茶蛋糕

材料:

低筋麵粉 (或 plain flour) 100 g
綠茶粉 1 湯匙
雞蛋 3 隻
砂糖 40 g
蜜糖 2 湯匙
乳化劑 (可省卻) 1 茶匙
菜油 (olive oil) 1 湯匙

製法:

1. 預熱焗爐 170度
2. 蛋 + 糖 + 蜜糖 + 乳化劑混合, 以電動打蛋器高速打至杰身 (約4分鐘)
3. 麵粉 + 綠茶粉一同過篩, 分數次加入(2)中, 以電動打蛋器慢速拌勻 (約1分鐘)
用膠刮拌入菜油
4. 倒入模中, 掃平表面, 入焗爐焗 35 分鐘

凍檸檬芝士餅

材料﹝15cm餅模﹞:

餅底:
消化餅碎 100g
無鹽牛油溶液 50g

忌廉芝士 250g (室溫攤軟)
砂糖 80g
檸檬汁 2 tsp
檸檬皮 1 tsp
酸忌廉 100g
練奶 3 tbsp
魚膠粉 10g
溫水 50ml
忌廉 200ml

製法:

先混和餅碎及無鹽牛油溶液,壓實入餅模並雪過夜;
將魚膠粉溶在暖水;
用打蛋器將忌廉芝士略為打發,加入砂糖,不停攪動至砂糖完全溶入忌廉芝士團中;
加入檸檬汁及檸檬皮,不停攪動至混和;
加入酸忌廉,繼續攪拌至兩者混合;
將魚膠溶液快手拌入芝士糊中;
加入約打發至5成的忌廉,拌勻;
混和所有材料,注入餅模,用膠刮掃平表面,放入雪櫃雪至少3小時便可享用。

Monday, September 29, 2008

A Meaningful Weekend

過去嘅週末我過得好滿意。首先,我星期五下晝入老鼠城出血同狂影相 - 我可以忘記一切,做番細路仔嘅我。我買咗一個巨型阿Jack - 原來衝動而不顧後果做事(當然,後果係可以承擔嘅)所帶嚟嘅感覺係咁好~

星期六下晝聽咗半個好有趣嘅talk。做人點叫有福氣?無後顧之憂,去得舒舒服服囉~

星期日,Family Day。我為大佬做咗一個唔靚,但相信應該幾好味嘅芒果蛋糕。我相信就算唔好味,但蛋糕入面嗰份兄妹情,會令個蛋糕喺大佬心中成為全世界最好味嘅~

我亦無忘記公司嘅戰友,我整咗一大盒醉雞翼俾佢哋食。我知唔一定個個都鍾意食,但有一個人appreciate我嘅心意就夠喇。唔鍾意嗰啲?唔好食囉~

就係一個平凡嘅週末,我為自己、為人哋做咗一啲事,我個心好平靜、舒服~

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

打風做啲乜?

打風做乜好?FYI,我老闆有可能打麻雀,有同事上次就同男友煮飯仔;而今晚我去7仔買嘢時就見到個男人買套套 - 可能佢同女友 / 老婆會做愛做嘅事,而我同上幾次一樣 - 整餅。

今次係「芒果千層班戟蛋糕」 - 依然無外表,但味道應該有進步。

Monday, September 22, 2008

終於...

就好似同一個人分手嘅感覺,我終於都入到我個「ex」blog,做一個交代。

一段「關係」嘅終結,唔多唔少都有啲傷感,畢竟佢記錄咗我過去幾唔多3年嘅喜怒哀樂;但我真係... 足足個幾禮拜入唔到個blog,我真係好唔開心(我可能已經addicted to我個blog)。

點都好,好聚好散。我已經喺個舊blog留底呢度嘅地址。要搵我嘅知道點可以搵到我~

P.S. 原來我喺我個舊blog post咗啱啱好700個message ...

Friday, September 19, 2008

我的EQ水平

尋日先同老闆講完自己喺公司已經長大,EQ水平提高咗唔少,今日就要掌自己嘴巴。就因為一啲無聊人講啲唔尊重其他同事嘅嘢,我就已經可以down一日。

今日公司開「生日會」,食物唔係啲乜嘢好嘅嘢,就只係一啲點心。就有一啲口賤嘅人講咗一句:乜好似拜神咁,我就已經好嬲。首先唔在講我為同事準備嘅時間勞力 - 因為呢啲係我應該要做嘅;但卿姐幫我哋上酒樓攞返嚟公司呢?今個月生日嘅同事又點諗呀?三十歲人啦,講嘢用腦諗吓先講啦...

我對呢個女子好失望 - 佢只係升職上Officer個位就「一朝得志,語無倫次」;如果有一日咁不幸俾佢再升上更高位置會點呢?

咒語

喺我公司,開「早會」係一個咒語,可以令一向唔守時返工嘅人唔單只準時,仲會早咗返嚟。好似今日,一隻二隻「嘢」就死死氣喺10點前出現,準備一陣間嘅Staff Briefing。

人,係犯賤嘅。點解唔可以尊重吓個遊戲規則,係都要人落「咒」先聽話???

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

忍無可忍 - 我要搬喇~

真係忍無可忍~ 喺過去嘅幾日假期都上唔到Qooza個blog,有一大埋心/深情札記無從記錄,搞到個人好... frustrated。

我都知道Qooza一直俾競爭對手攻擊。喺道義上,我應該支持Qooza,因為佢都係一個受害者,俾competitors玩到殘;但我只係一個user,我上唔到自己個blog,亦有我嘅frustration。所以...

Qooza嘅敵人(們),你哋成功咗喇~ 又有一個user離開Qooza喇~